I have a love-hate relationship when it comes to sharing things. If my friends or family members, wanna borrow my laptop, my phone.. Or most of the time almost any electronic gadget at all, I'm fine with it. I'm generous when it comes to this.
When girl friends wanna borrow my dresses, it is still acceptable. But depending on how close we are and how much I like that friend.
If anyone, except my mom and my sister ( But gotta ask permission first) Wants to borrow my shoes, I dont think Im gonna let that happen. This is because I don't know what to do when there are scratches and tears and mud all over it. And my heart would hurt so bad I'd die.
Bags, it depends on what bag too. Most of the time bags are not a problem but then again.. Why on earth wanna borrow other people's bags leh?
And the one thing I definitely don't like doing, is to borrow things from other people. This only happens unless if I have no choice.
1. Because if I spoil it only using once, its such a rugi investment.
And how would I know if its spoilt from the beginning and Im scapegoat.
2. People will in the long term find me annoying for borrowing. Even I myself will feel myself annoying.
3. What if the person needs it the same time I need it too? No one is gonna give two fucks about me right?
This explains why there are so many same clothes in my house. Everytime my mom buys something I really like... I will go to the same shop and buy back the same thing.
Me and my mom, we have the same bags. We have the same clothes. We have the same cardigans. We have the same leggings.
And its not because we borrow things from each other, but because we bought the two same things. Maybe just in different sizes.
I always get nagged and scolded for buying the same things.
My mom will be like
" Why are you so crazy, can't you just borrow from me?"
Yea it may sound nice to be able to borrow but in reality its not like that. My mom will give me hell if any minor accident happened to the borrowed item. She will make me buy her a new one, pay for damage, and swear she wont borrow me stuff anymore.
So why bother borrowing right? I might as well just live in peace and buy whatever I like.
Recently I've been asking my dad to sell me his camera. Its a nice one and OF COURSE, he'll tell me if I want to use it I can borrow from him.
If I borrow from him, Im sure he will bug me day and night to keep it in the case after using. And when he needs it, I have to figure out where the cable is. And figure out where the battery charger is. And if anything happens to the camera, I HAVE TO BUY NEW ONE FOR HIM.
Theres so much responsibility and stress when it comes to borrowing people's things. Therefore, borrowing is not something I believe in. So I MAY be buying a new camera, which is actually pretty sad .. because I don't really wanna spend money.
I also don't know which camera to buy :(
I'm also thinking of changing my blog these days. Actually, long long time ago. You know, its been like 5 years since Im in this space, time for a change maybe. I'll do that in May hopefully.
I dont mind lending people my things. I just mind borrowing things from people.
Tuesday is a day where I have 4 hours break from 12noon till 4pm. The worst part is, I am taking the 4pm class ALONE without the boys. I'm always in dilemma whether to drive all the way home from uni and return for 4pm class... Or stay and stone in uni for 4 hours.
Courageous me (pfffbt) decided to stay back and do my assignments in uni alone last Tuesday. But first, I decided lunch would be nice, and I went to Chillax.
My RM10.90 sausage meal. Actually I took this picture to Whatsapp my mom claiming that my allowance cannot sustain my lifestyle.Indirectly hinting her to give me a raise lah ( I failed miserably tho) what else. HAHAHA.
While I was cutting up and chewing my sausage, I saw a table of about 14 people opposite me. I believe all of them are students from the same uni as I am in, and at first I thought they had a lunch gathering.
Gathering indeed it was, but I then realized it was some sort of Christian fellowship gathering. I didn't really noticed until the leader started talking. You know some leaders, they have this strong, loud voice that is hou lan charismatic? Thats what I'm talking about.
So basically, during the whole time I just listened to what the leader had to say. I also observed the responses of the members. If that leader sat infront of me during my lunch... Im afraid I'd have to shove this RM10.90 sausage down her throat on her plate.
Its not about the content, its the annoying loudness.
Last December I bought all these notebooks because I love collecting notebooks. I know its a damn retarded hobby and its taking up alot alot of space.
I never know what to write in these things, and notes are made in laptops these days. What can I possibly write in them? I gave up writing a diary 10 years ago because my mom snoops better than Snoop Dogg! Its so effing embarassing back then, you know, writing about crushes and shit. I have learnt my lesson!
Anyway, Im stuck with assignments, its going to be a hectic semester! Before I sign off, the good news of the week is :
MY TEETH HAS IMPROVED AFTER WEARING BRACES FOR 6 WEEKS! NEXT POST !